So, I’m a big fan of movies. I love films so much so that I think I chose the wrong major in college. I feel like I should have studied theatre and production or majored in Film Studies, only thing was I had no clue what I would with thosedegrees. I would like pursue something along these lines in Grad School but scholarships and grants are sparse for arts degrees not mention I would be competing with people who have been doing this professionally for the majority of their lives. Maybe I’ll do it anyway#YOLO. But I have had some chilling moments watching movies mostly because I can see bits of myself in a character. I had this moment when I watched a couple (now) favorites: Welcome Home Roscoe Jenkins and Black Swan#meandthemovies.
I took to Roscoe Jenkins and his perspective as the story progressed. I too have that family in the country filled with memories you try to dodge. I could completely understand him leaving, I want to leave too because, like Roscoe, I believe I can make a better life, a better me, without all the emotional baggage and preconceived notions. I love my family but I could definitely use time away from them for the sake of getting to me. But I noticed that even all that time and success that Roscoe had away from his family didn’t help out grow his feelings. He came back fell back into his role in the family and the only reason things changed was because he had enough courage to finally speak frankly..the end result wasn’t always pleasant (several black eyes) but he was able to mend ties with his family and develop a new appreciation for them and they, in turn, gained a new respect for him. Maybe I should save myself some time#message.
in my initial viewing I saw a girl that had some issues that could be solved by getting around more people, letting go/caring less and moving out of her mother’s house. But I saw something different watching it a second time. I cringed when I found myself understanding this woman. I recognized her mother as my own sometimes. I understood completely that desire for perfection and having a hard time letting go. I have my own version of The Scratch. We share too many traits, it’s crazy. But unlike Nina, I have an example to learn vicariously from.#lessonlearned.
But that is the point of films and characterizations, right? Writers pull relationships, habits and situations that common so that we can better relate to the characters and invest in the action of film. The deeper it resounds within us, the prouder the writer is of their work. It just feels like someone knows my life sometimes#somebody’swatchingme.